That’s all.
People say that I should sit back and let love come to me. That I shouldn’t openly look for it.
Well here’s what I say. I’m an attractive woman. I’m smart and I take care of mine w/o help from anyone.
This means that I can’t make a freaking move without someone somewhere trying to get at me.
I got a FB message about a week ago from an ex of my homegirl. This man knows nothing about me, but he thought that I would be a good match for his homeboy. WTF?!?!? We’re not even friends…what is it about a picture makes you think that me and your boy would be a match. You don’t even know me!!
Random shit like that happens to me all the time…
Men are everywhere I turn and everytime I turn around someone is trying to get at me.
So fuck the dumb shit, I’m TIRED!
And frankly I just want to be left alone…LEAVE ME ALONE!!!
Everytime I say that I’m taking a break, someone else comes out of the woodworks…someone is there trying to take me out, or get in my panties, or get to know me, and some just want to talk for hours about nothing.
People think I exaggerate my life when I don’t. I’m not the prettiest or sexiest chic out there in the game, but for some reason I can’t seem to shake them.
PLEEEEEEEASE LEAVE ME ALONE!!!
I’ve been sick for the past few days and I haven’t called a soul. Now normally when you’re sick you want to be comforted by someone who cares…funny thing is, I don’t think of any of the men on my “roster” really care. So my phone has been on silent, and calls have been sent to vm when I did see them coming in.
I’m just tired.
I really need a break.
I’m not ready for a relationship.
My heart just isn’t ready…it needs a break.
So God if you’re listening…I just want to be left alone. Please.
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July 28, 2009 at 3:15 pm
Jaci
I want to comment.
My heart can’t take this..it hurts for you.
Pray.
July 28, 2009 at 3:32 pm
Tea
Don’t worry about me…I’m tough as nails.
July 28, 2009 at 3:39 pm
Jaci
Can’t help it.
I know better.
I’ll tell you like I told someone else…none of us can do this if you can’t and you can..but you’ve got to take a nice…long…look @ yourself and really think about if you want Alex to go through this..think about the behaviors exhibited and what they mean for other you, other women, your daughter and other little girls.
Cause I’ll honestly say, some of it does not look good. Got to control those emotions.
Just know that I love you
July 28, 2009 at 3:52 pm
Tea
Tell me about it…I’m hot tempered…it’s a cycle that I have to break. I get it from my mother so it’s engrained in me…but I know the problem, just need to take some time ALONE to work on the solution.
July 28, 2009 at 3:57 pm
Lovely Paradox
Everytime I say that I’m taking a break, someone else comes out of the woodworks…someone is there trying to take me out, or get in my panties, or get to know me, and some just want to talk for hours about nothing.
Ok, darling I hear you. You are attractive and smart and the whole world wants to talk to you… Then the question is this: why do you keep picking the wrong ones then? Or what makes the ones you pick not go the way it is supposed to be?
My thing is this, you’re an adult and as an adult we learn to take responsibility for our actions. When something is effed up, it is NEVER ever one person’s entire fault. We have a hand in it, whether we actively participated in it or we passively let it happen.
You want to be left alone? Then be left alone. Do not reply to those FB nods and smile politely to those men who are constantly barraging you with offers. You have an option to say no, you know? So exercise that option if that’s really what you want to do.
Being “assaulted” with offers doesn’t mean we have to accept or indulge any or all of them.
Mostly, I hope you find peace of mind or heart. Life shouldn’t be this strenuous or exhausting… when it becomes, it means we are doing something wrong.
Take care.
July 28, 2009 at 4:02 pm
Jac
Lovely,
Truer words couldn’t have been spoken in a more eloquent manner.
July 28, 2009 at 4:09 pm
Tea
I always take blame for my part in any relationship gone bad. I know my faults, I know my problems…and dammit I don’t need anyone else pointing them out.
I’m a human being…which means that I’m a contradictory force. Mentally I’m not ready to be with anyone, but it feels unnatural to be alone. So I make bad decisions when dating b/c I’m at odds with myself.
Thank you for your insight but like I said before…I would prefer to just be left alone.